Looking through an old journal, found something that, after my friend’s comment, made me laugh.
From an undated entry in journal Oct ’13 – Oct ’14:
“I need to be writing. All of my days are spent w/ wasting time. Being time-poor, mostly of my own doing. Even at the office, my motivation wanes so quickly. I look forward to the show’s end, where I can try to reclaim some of my lost life.”
Looks like it’s a struggle I’ve had now over ten years, and most likely longer.